hiiiii! i'm sqweakz!!
> 23 y/o
> he/they
> part-time creative scoundrel
hey, i'm lavender. you can call me lav, or sqweakz, or whatever funny name you come up with. i don't mind.when i'm not working i game. when i'm not gaming i draw. when i can't draw i game. and when i can't game, well, i don't really know. don't usually think that far.
as far as games i play, i tend to stick to games that aren't too difficult, or require fast reflexes or constant practice, which is funny considering i play rhythm games (pretty badly, naturally).
i enjoy sandbox games, open-world exploration games, metroidvanias, and roguelikes- stuff with a lot of replay value. speedrunnable stuff. i am pretty bad at speedrunning most of them still lmao. (i can beat hollow knight in like 3 hours if that means anything)
my identity isn't a really big deal to me, but since people prefer putting labels on me anyway, i guess i should note that i'm black, trans, and probably neurodivergent. the mental illness list is only for moots sorry guys.
i currently work in food service. it's unfulfilling, and it pushes me to my physical and mental limits every day, but it pays the bills. and money is nice, because you can buy things! like games you won't play for months and stickers!!
a collection of cool art i think is cool
admittedly i don't really know how to build up a portfolio so here's just a bunch of my better art for you to see what i can generally do.
i can make decent art when i decide to be ambitious(sorted by year, newest to oldest, clip studio paint)
2024
slowing down to make art that isn't too remarkable, but still nice to look at
2023
focusing on simpler art styles/techniques, as i was way happier with their end results
2022
adding random ass bits of rendering and hoping it looked nice
2021
testing clip studio paint and fucking around with chunky outlines
character design is my passion
(sorted newest to oldest, clip studio paint)these were designs made on a whim without much prior planning. i tried to avoid adding ref sheets i made intentionally for the purpose of being a permanent ref.all of these oc's belong to me
2024
2023
2022
unfortunately most of my art doesnt get past the sketch stage. here's quite a few that i never decided to finish
(sorted by year, newest to oldest, clip studio paint)
scroll down to view, it's a long one
2024i was battling severe depression (and by extension impostor syndrome) for the majority of this year, and as a result over half of the sketches i actually did were never saved.i spent a lot of time experimenting with brushes; it's greatly improved my line confidence but i'm constantly fighting over what style i want to stick with.
2023you probably noticed how clean these look. in this period i was using my sketches as the lineart, spending extra time cleaning them. most of these were ready for coloring actually. never got to it.
2022a time when i actually did warm-up doodles lmao. a lot of these are colored and even look finished as a result.
2021around this time i was transitioning out of medibang and into clip studio. having an overwhelming amount of tools available, a lot of this time was spent carelessly drawing whatever came to mind to get used to the program.
bonus: mspaint sketches
done with mouse
